I have a freshman?

How did this happen that my son is a freshman in high school? Wow, what a constant fight! I'm just now realizing that I'm not going to win every battle and he might even win the war. "Parents are so stupid." I remember saying it and now I feel it! I remember the total fear and dread that came over me when I left the hospital with him. How totally unprepared I felt I was to be mothering a newborn. Boy, I was way more prepared for the newborn than I am for this. Every time he steps out the door I can't protect him; from the world or himself!

Bachelor's Degree "check"

Ah blessed summer with your long days and warm nights how I have missed you. So, I walked in a long line of other "smart" people, shook hands with the university president and he gave me a holder with no diploma in it. I started having flash backs of high school and how worried I had been about actually graduating because, yeah, it was a close call back then. So, now I'm officially a college grad and I received Cum Laude which means I'm really smart! I had hoped for magna or summa but at least in this situation I wasn't wondering if I'd even make it all! Now it's on to graduate school; apparently once you're bitten by the education bug it takes awhile for the anti-venom to work. I'm just not sure which direction to take, so many choices! Oh well, I have 7 months to figure it out!

"If people never vanished like the dew of Adashino, never disappeared like the smoke over Toribeyama, how little power to move us could anything possess. The most precious thing about life is its uncertainty." Yoshida Kenko (1283-c.1351), Japan

Down to Wire and the Stress Associated..

Almost done with the Bachelor of Arts degree that has taken me 10 years to get! Almost done and I'm tired and worn out and getting yelled at because I'm not who I'm supposed to be. Who am I supposed to be? Perfect? I didn't think perfection existed. Guess what world - I have flaws! Oh yeah I am a deeply flawed human being and maybe even overly sensitive... more on that later.

I find it interesting that the Bible verse that carried me through my sometimes tumultuous childhood is still the verse that gets me through my more than sometimes tumultuous adulthood!

If it is your inclination to do so, I highly recommend checking out Psalms 27 from beginning to end!

Here's just a snippet:
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
When evildoers assail me, uttering slanders against me,
my adversaries and foes, they shall stumble and fall...

...I believe that I shall see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living!
Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage;
yea, wait for the Lord!

Diabetes, WeightWatchers and the Finale!

It's official I have diabetes. (stop) The days of eating whatever I want are over. (stop) I'm now on WW to control the diabetes. (stop) Just when I want to gorge myself in emotional eating because I've almost got my degree. (stop) This has to happen! (STOP)

I can't believe I'm almost done with my undergraduate degree. What a relief! I can't stop now though! Must push forward! - back to work for me!

The Waiting!

Well, Winter quarter is over. Finals are done and now it's the waiting! Waiting for my grades because I'm like the rat that's been conditioned. I want my freaking cheese already! My dad's off having a grand 'ole time in Florida and I'm stuck here waiting for my grades. It's kinda funny that he's in FL for spring break, I mean shouldn't he have thought of this say 40 years ago? I hope it's a different experience now than it would have been then. Stop at all the museums pop! I guess I'll write an update when I can breath easy again!

Quote: "Hasten slowly and you will soon reach your destination."Milarepa (1052-1135), Tibet

What's the best medicine?

Laughter Baby! I've had a hell of a day and I really needed some energy boosting laughter time. So, what do I do? I go to the internet and it never lets me down! Of course, I must be careful to only find good clean fun and I do - oh I do! When times are tough and you feel like you're walking through the jungle where the lions sleeps just hum this little diddy and think of a fanciful dog and a refined hippo it's guaranteed to put a smile on your face! If that doesn't do the trick then just try not to have a good time dancing the peanut butter - jelly dance with a storm trooper! Or when you need a little luck all you need to do is look for the nearest tree full of birds! Ok ok for the naughty academic in us all - a little double Jeopardy! I hope you enjoy this tiny compilation of the silliness that I've gathered this evening!

And I leave you with this quote: "To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was YOU." Lewis B Smedes

Fall Has Fleeted and Winter is A Coming!

You can choose a ready guide in some celestial voice
If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice
You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill
I will choose a path that's clear
I will choose freewill

"Freewill" Rush 1980

I love this song, but didn't really dissect the lyrics in my teens and early 20's. I especially like the line about choices because there are ALWAYS options. Sometimes things can seem so black and white but that's when we get stuck in this polarizing state of "have to's" which can be VERY dangerous. Although I would just like to clarify that freewill is not a choice it is given to us by God whom we can choose to follow or not because, of course, we have freewill.

Gearing up for Winter Quarter - hitting the books hard and loving it! Rock on!